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kohl's cash
01:38
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everyday is garbage day
i learn to play my part
the sell-your-soul commuter rail
while tourists look at art
you fuck around to settle down
to fall right into line
do your work, a circle jerk
of parents numbed with wine
to deflate my ego
i dust off the cheetos
i get that this looks like a plea
a blanket burrito
to fend off mosquitos
and everyone that looks at me
if i don't feel like anyone
there's no one to compare
nothing to call home about
nothing new to share
it's just like meditation
without all the payoff
visualize the void til
my alarm goes off
my dreams feel anemic
the route, a bit scenic
to get to where i need to go
performative wokeness
millennial brokeness
when progress just feels too slow
kohls cash for savings
applebees cravings
i change and i morph and i flee
the grocery store's haunting
when things get too daunting
my apartment holds what's left of me
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jawline
02:16
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my jawline cannot compensate for all the things i lack
i am not convinced that my hamster loves me back
i'm not sure she has feelings, i've been told i have a lot
send out another resume and think another thought
about the friends i haven't made
the bills i haven't paid
i'm too small for the clothes that used to be too small for me
the birds that woke me up at home wake me up in philly
i wanted to change the world but i barely change my bra
my body shrinks with the list of who i can still call
the lump inside my mouth
the life i left down south
i mean what i meant
you leave before you're left
i leave what i left
and come back when it's convenient
come back when it's convenient
i mean what i meant
you leave before you're left
i leave what i left
and come back when it's convenient
come back when it's convenient
come back when it's convenient
the friends i haven't made
the bills i haven't paid
the lump inside my mouth
the life i left down south
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when i go home for christmas i wish that i could brag
about the job and salary that i've never had
i want my friends and family to look and be impressed
but it's hard to find a talking point when you're post grad depressed
but you can't bring this up over family dinner talks
instead it's time to tell them all that i invest in stocks
even though i'm really just a few years past my prime
and no one can convince me that a job will come in time
how's your house
what's boston like
how's the job hunt
how's your life
where's your friends
are they on strike
pay your bills
for all your life
i prepare my story at least six weeks in advance
an elevator speech about my average circumstance
the unimpressive sibling with a massive coverup
everything is fine i promise i can measure up
but what do i admit to when they ask about it all
do i pretend that i'm adjusting to this new suburban sprawl
as the holiday approaches i wish that i could flee
so everyone can feel better bout my college degree
how's your house
what's boston like
how's the job hunt
how's your life
where's your friends
are they on strike
pay your bills
for all your life
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